I talked to one of my nurses at SCRC (Sara Cannon Research Center) where I am so blessed to get the chemo...I know, I am a guinea pig, but the tests cost me nothing and just think of that wonderful blessing. Along the way what if we discover a wondrous cure for a certain cancer? That would be amazing. I probably cannot get well anyway, even though I have survived going on 7 years now, so I might as well be a useful human being, medical-wise! Well, the nurse said I might as well just wait and come in Thursday at the Dr visit time/chemo start another cycle time.
I get nervous when the CT time draws near...what will it show? I am still tired from just everything this past month. I am sure I am not the strongest, and all this moving and stress and nerves strung out. When I am tired I think "can I do another chemo?" and "Do I really want to live like this, doing doctor stuff all the time?"
So far, every time, there is enough going on in our lives that I would hate to miss out on, so here we go again!!!!!
I John 3:1 tells us "How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!"
Change After 30 Years
11 months ago
Praying God will sing over you today. It takes so much energy to just get dressed and mentally prepare for chemo. I sat with friends during their therapy and had NO clue about what it took just to get there. You Go Bev - God Bless and keep you ever close.
ReplyDeletelovingly, kathryn
My God is sufficient for the day. I'm glad He is.