Thursday, January 26, 2012

"For who is God beside our Lord?"

"...And who is the Rock except our God? It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect..."Psalm 18:31-32

I saw the oncologist today, and he told me that I was in the 4 out of 10 who qualified for the new (tissue-tested) chemo based on strengthening the immune system. He also said there are few side effects. It is supposed to kill any cancer it finds! This is experimental. I believe the 4 treatments involve 60 days and then a CT. It is a great hope which all cancer patients wait and pray for. I feel this is a gift from God for me to be able to do this. It gives how many more months? or a year? That much longer to be with greats and grands and children. Yesterday was Johny's birthday so we thought of him a lot all day. He would have been 56 and I am sure he is much happier where he is. Not much is sadder than an aging retarded "child" to me. Maybe because I see beyond the happiness they bring, to the sorrow they suffer in trying to make their way in a world not made for them.

Anyway, happiness and sadness to an extent--what life is made of. Thank you God, my Rock, who gives all the wonderful gifts of life...........


  1. Barbara Johnson-ClarkJanuary 26, 2012 at 11:09 PM

    I am so excited! You qualified for the treatment! Our answer to prayers--the answer we pleaded for God to give. Please Bev, explain, if this treatment kills any cancer it finds, will it not give you the cure we've prayed so long for you to have? Why would you gain only a few months or a year? You are going to be one out of four people who make history in the world of a cure for cancer! I've always known you would do this! You are a leader of women. God has such important work for you to do. Please let us know how you are feeling getting over the radiation.
    We are praying daily.
    We love you,
    Barbara & Alan

  2. Beverly, I am so glad to read about your good news with the chemo. We have been praying to get this kind of news.

    I hope you are OK or maybe just out of of town or busy. I was concerned since you have not written in your blog since last Thursday night. I always check every morning to see if you have put anything new on here.

    We all love you.

    Ann Napier