Wednesday, November 9, 2011

"I trust in your unfailing love..."

" heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord for He has been good to me." Psalm 13:5-6

Last night I wrote this blog, using part of the same Bible verses and when I "sent" it, the entire writing disappeared except for the Bible verse at the top. I wish I knew something about computers!!!

The MRI was not very good. The lower abdominal cancer is growing and causing this intense pain, especially when I lie down at night. Apparently this chemo did not work. I will have a PET next week and see what it did for the cancer in my liver. So all that nausea and inability to eat, throat soreness, was for nothing! I have been very tired and wonder where that is from? Cancer? Age? Chemo? I may never know since I am on one thing or another all the time.

A daily devotional we get had as part of it that God gives us His grace and salvation so how can we ask for more? We ask for cures and easy paths of life? Is there any greater gift than His love and grace? This is why I can sing and praise, even in the midst of pain and cancer...God has given me so much!

Next week I will also go to a pain management doctor to see if he can "cut" nerves to relieve the pain in my abdomen. I cannot imagine how this would be done but guess I will find out. I also removed myself from a Bible class I was taking. It made Wednesdays just too much and was more than I can handle right now.

This blog tonight is not very happy but this is where I am at this moment. I still praise God for His care and ask for relief from pain, and maybe find another chemo to keep me going a little longer, so I can take care of John! Blessings to each of you!

1 comment:

  1. Barbara Johnson-ClarkNovember 9, 2011 at 11:13 PM

    Yes, you must take care of John! John can't do it without you. So another chemo that will keep you going for John is definitely worth the try. We all want to keep you for as long as we can, but John is the one who NEEDS to live with you for as long as he can. So by all means, take a deep breath and then venture out. You never know what is just around the next corner of life. But God does....

    I couldn't help the tears tonight during family prayer time. We first prayed for Kathy since we'd just gotten the results of her surgery. And we prayed for Jim W. since we know he has the same kind of cancer, and this news must be making him quake. And we prayed for "our Sarah" over at Brentwood Hills with her colon cancer. And as always Jacob prayed so sweetly and earnestly on your behalf. My children just love John and you so dearly. You've got a fan club!

    I hope the pain consult goes well. I'm anxious to hear the results.
    Much love to you both,
    Barbara, Alan and the children