Tuesday, January 4, 2011

"O Lord, you have searched me..."

"O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. ---For you created my inmost being;---your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.---How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!" Psalm 139:1-3,13,16,17.

This Psalm is probably the most comforting of all..I have read it so many times, starting when my sister died and I found solace for her early dying. Then along the way in this cancer, I began to realize how God holds our lives so richly and He sees each day and His plan is for us each day. I never thought about this when I was young--the plans God has for us.

Well, we are going to have ANOTHER "great" next summer---that makes 8 and how exciting!
The CT today was hopeful. The two pelvic tumors (I usually don't talk about these two) are shrinking and the 10 or so in the liver are no larger, maybe a tiny bit smaller on the two "markers" they measure. There are no new tumors any where. I thank

God for this blessing. John and I will have more time to be together and hopefully more time for these babies.

I really am having a tough time with the side effects but pray the trip we are going on will help. John and I are going to Naples, Florida for a little while and hope the sun and warmth will ease the cracked hands and feet and the leg and arm rash. I had the infusion chemo today and will get a white cell shot tomorrow then we will leave. I will write about our trip when we return. Blessings!


  1. Barbara Johnson-ClarkJanuary 5, 2011 at 11:58 AM

    Dear Bev and John,
    Our prayers for you will not cease while you are on this much deserved trip to Naples. Naples is such a beautiful city, rich with gorgeous homes and wealth, but so much more importantly-rich with God's wondrous beauty. Such a perfect place to spend some time while all of Tennessee shivers and watches the snows and winds of winter. We will miss you, but I hope you stay as long as you can and enjoy every moment with your handsome John. You both are so blessed to have each other. God has certainly shined down on you, and HE will continue to do so. The scans will undoubtedly continue to improve, and the summer of the "newest great" will be your best ever!
    Much love to you both,
    Barbara and Alan

  2. Hi.. This is Stephen from India.. I dont know your name or place but I would like to share something with you.. Read through Your blog, feel so motivated by your courage and strength in fighting out cancer.. My mom was once fighting this dreaded disease for more than 2 years or so.. By God's grace and His eternal plans She is now all well and is a living testimony for Jesus Christ, Our Lord.. I know that You too will be a Testimony for Our Saviour very soon coming out victorious.. I am just a young guy in my 20's and not the right person to adivce you or give you strength but I would like to reiterate the following two verses for You, if you had aleady known these.. John-9:3 and John-11:4 I went through these scriptures yesterday only. I hope that these two verses hold good for you too so that Our Lord Jesus will be glorified through your illness.. You are sure to recover and to recover very soon.. Please please dont loose hope.. God is there with you as our prayers too..