Lots going on this week...Chemo on Thursday and the steroid makes me crazy for a few days. We stayed busy Friday going to see greats out of town for the day---a really wonderful, fun time and seeing one of them for the first time...she is 2 months old. Also seeing how they grow in the two months since we saw the others. Also being with our oldest grandson and his precious wife, seeing what a blessing they are in their relationship with each other and their children. Then today we spent with Cathy and Ronnie and more family working on the cabin they are building. We got home and the bottom has fallen out. The chemo usually waits a couple of days to really kick in with the bad side effects. I am shaky and weak tonight, and know I will be nauseous tomorrow. I am to have the MRI on November 6 so then I will know just what is going on, and what is growing where. Meanwhile, I will try to get thru each day, and be normal as I can. I hate these chemo effects more each time I take it.
As I usually do, after I say I hate this chemo and cancer, then I know how blessed I am to be alive and enjoy the family and friends I do. So I look forward to holidays, being with everyone, plans, thinking of gifts for all of them, hoping for strength. God is so good. Isaiah 53 ( one of my favorite passages) and part of verse 12, "For He bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressor."
Change After 30 Years
7 months ago
Once again you have said just the right things; the things I needed desperately to read for my own benefit. I hate so badly that the chemo is so hateful, and I hate horribly that the cancer is unrelenting in its ugliness to my dear friends and family who have to suffer with it. But I praise God above that you are the example you are. You are so gracious and beautiful, no matter what the pain is or the odds are. You are the most influential mentor and friend I've ever known. So I can go to my own bed tonight remembering the lesson from Isaiah that you reminded me of, just exactly when I needed it the most.
ReplyDeleteLoving you and praying for you every day,
Barbara