Tuesday, September 21, 2010

God's plans for us...

Last night, I wrote a very long blog and lots of details about lots of things (most of which I cannot remember now) and when I hit "publish" it all disappeared! I was so frustrated and just closed it up and went to bed!
Jeremiah 29:11 is a verse I quote often for several reasons. It reaffirms us that God has plans for our lives, it also tells us that His plans are to help us do well in all areas, and He also wants us to be hopeful. Above all, God wants us to see that our future is set with Him and is taken care of--not anything we have to we afraid for.

"For I know the plans I have for you, declared the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

As you know I was all set for the new experimental chemo to start today. Yesterday the nurse told me that the drug company and Sara Cannon Research Center (where I go) could not reach some sort of agreement and the drug was called off then they got it agreed to again. But before I can start on it, I have to have an eye test, heart echo test, numerous blood tests, a CT and then (hopefully) on October 5 I will start this new one. At first I was so upset, frustrated, lost my patience, then I had to remind myself, that all I do is in God's hands. I have not lived all this extra time for nothing! I have to believe I am in His plan (or trying to be) for Him to give me this grace and blessings of these extra years.
So I will (not be anxious) wait for the CT and see what has been happening these two months with no chemo. I think I told that a new class on Wednesday night is about living "fearless in a fearful world" and it certainly can be fearful...just have to wait for God's plans!

1 comment:

  1. Bev,
    You are my newest hero. My what you have been through and yet your faith and TRUST is right in the middle. Thank you, I needed that today. God go and be with you as you go through tests and wait for "the word".