Wednesday, December 30, 2009

We are children of God...

"How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!..." I John 3:1....How precious to be God's child, to fall asleep on His shoulder, to be that child again, totally dependent on Him (this is what I would love to be like and totally depend on God) This has not been too bad a day 2, I'm a little shaky, lack of sleep last night; following the bag of steroids, I slept about half the usual amount. The strange taste of all foods is back, even water tastes like something unreal. The arthritis hit my left hand this time, and it is really sore and swollen. But still, a reasonable day considering the "rat poison" (my pet name for chemo) yesterday...I took all the Christmas decorations down today and wondered if I would be putting them up this next Christmas. I cannot help but wonder over things like this. I asked my oncologist yesterday what I should say when questioned about the growth of the cancer or whatever, and he said, "tell them you should have been dead 5 years ago--and God has kept you alive and He knows when your time is up"...and meantime, we are doing the best we can to prolong my life and see what God has planned for me. It is an awesome feeling to know I am so certainly in God's hands, and to know I am His child.


  1. Beverly,

    I so enjoy reading your blog and keeping up with your progress in fighting the cancer. I pray your spiritual strength will continue to give you the physical strength to fight for another five years.

  2. Beverly, sorry the chemo has been so hard on you! As to what your Oncologist said. Sigh...sometimes I think Drs. really need a yearly refresher course on how to not be jerks when talking to there patients! I know they're trying to be honest, but I had Dr. say the dumbest things sometimes. Hope you get to feeling better very soon!