Tuesday, August 24, 2010

"He gives strength to the weary..."

"...and increases the power of the weak....but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary. they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:29-31
well my CT was not good...I have two new tumors and two of the older ones have increased in size. Obviously the chemo did not work for me. We will try plan "x" or whatever the next one is. I took the chemo "patupelone" several years ago and quit it because it was so harsh, but it did get rid of the cancer for a year. It has been taken off the market as an experimental but is back on as an approved drug with some changes, under another name. My doctor is going to see if my insurance will approve it for me and we will try it and see if I can take it and not have too many side effects. I don't know how I feel...I told the doctor I will not do any chemo that makes me sick more than half the time. I have to have good quality of life at least half the time or it is not worth it. I think I am "blue" but then I think, God really sent a message that this is not the chemo for me! So I will try this old/new one and see how bad the side effects are. There are still two or more experimentals we could try. I still KNOW God is in charge of my life and I will abide in His will.

4 comments:

  1. Barbara Johnson-ClarkAugust 24, 2010 at 11:37 PM

    Oh our dear sweet precious Sister,
    How is it that I can read about such totally un-positive news in your life and come away feeling uplifted and strengthened by your words? You are going to kick this cancer! Your spirit MUST continue to inspire us and cause us to go on and strive to work for the kingdom of God! The verse above is one of my favorite, but then I think all the verses are favorites. But I really love this one. When my oldest son was a member of the MCOC Youth Department, the Wings of Eagles award was presented to a deserving senior each year at the their end of the year banquet. And now that I have read it with this post, it will forever have a different special meaning to me. I'm going to post it on my screen and pray for you all the through the day tomorrow and each day until the "chemo decision" is made. I will pray for the insurance to come through, and then that the new/old chemo will be THE ONE! Please take this posted hug until I can see you on Sunday with a real one.--I love you, Barbara

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  2. Precious Friend~
    You continue to amaze me. You know when Christ comes for His bride, I want God to look out over the gagillions of people and notice that I look different, more excited, more faithful, more loving and then choose me for His son. I see all of those things in you. Always have. I love you, Talisa

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  3. Bev, I will pray, too, as Barbara has said, throughout the day and through the decisions being made. You are joy, love, and brightness to me--always have been, and through these obstacles. Through the obstacles you show the power of God's love and his peace and the "peculiarity" of HIS children; his believer(s); his servant(s); his own. I love you. Benita

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  4. Dear Beverly
    Keith and I are in the UK working with some of the churches here. I think about you and John every day when I pray for you. You both have been our spiritual mentors all of these years.
    We pray for the healing hand of the Lord to cover
    you.
    Love
    Keith and Sharon

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