The Lord's great love...

I have talked to various family members(even cousins calling from out of state, as well as family here) and they all worry as I am trying to decide about the chemo. I am praying for wisdom from God and think maybe I should not try the patupalone "remake". It was so harsh last time and I do not have the reserves I had then. I still need to talk to my doctor...see what other possibilities he has for me.

I am constantly thinking of past happenings to put in this blog and leave for my family--things that they would not know. I have a monopoly board I received for Christmas when I was about 10. It is all there except the top lid. We have not played it in years--no one ever wants to play that!
I also have two books, one of poems from about 8 years old and one about "three little kittens" that I probably had at about 5-6 years old. I had my doll high chair until last year when I gave it to our 4 year old "great". That high chair no longer has the "apron" across the front. I have told about my cat Jerry. I would dress him in doll clothes and he would sit in that high chair. He would do anything I wanted him to do...boy ,he was patient! He would also allow himself to be dressed and rolled around in my doll buggy. I have a picture of him in that high chair.
At those ages, you want to be older, and the years do go fast , especially later on.

I have still had nausea, and take my zofran. I would think by now the chemo would have worn off and I would not have any side effects. Food still is not that good. My family is concerned by how "thin" I am.
Well I have another 6 days of no rat poison so I am enjoying this "freedom".

These verses from Lamentations are so wondrous---3:22-23, "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassion's never fail. They are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness." I know this is why we can get up each day with renewed courage, energy and optimism. Please pray with us that the right chemo will be offered next Tuesday.