Monday, October 19, 2009
Monday Finally got here!
From Psalm 130 in "The Messenger": "I pray to God-my life a prayer-and wait for what He'll say and do. My life's on the line before God, my Lord, waiting and watching till morning, waiting and watching till morning." So today finally got here, nearly two months from the CT that said the cancer was back with a vengeance! I have been through the surgery that changed my life forever with an ileostomy, and been through the two aborted attempts to stop the cancer, so now begins the third attempt. The CT was last week and I had to wait these three days to hear the results (unusual because my oncologist usually reads it that same day and gives the results, but this was a hurry up and work in the CT. I started today with an echo heart cardiogram, which turned out to be very good, then two EKG's which also were very good. Then the CT told us that the cancer has not grown any extra in the lower pelvis, only the small growths in my liver, which we knew about. Two of these had grown some, but that did not seem to be too bad . This is wonderful news since the cancer grew so fast from April to August. I feel God is watching over me and has His hand on me, I cannot attribute this news to anything but answer to prayer. I have not finished my "whatever I have to do" on earth yet. The Doctor told me, that as long as there is optimism, I will do very well...when there is no hope, death comes very quickly. God and I are very determined to stop (at least for a while) this cancer and He will receive the Glory forever, Amen! Tomorrow I will have the experimental chemical run in my veins, then blood tests every two hours to see how my body is accepting it. I pray for a good day, little or no nausea and the ability to take this and maybe help someone else in the long run. I am trying to be very honest in this blog, so that anyone who reads it--who has cancer can identify with me, if a family member has it, you can better understand their emotions... no matter how strong my faith wants to be, I cry very easily, and get very emotional easily. I think it has to do with seeing how fragile life is and how we take so much for granted...I hope someone is along with me on this journey..